Moving On......... Truly Moving OnSome of my friends have been telling me that I still hanker after my S2BX.....and I've been deny it.
After all, I've been living on my own for nine months, only seen her three times (in court) and not in the last couple of months or the next three.
Then it hit me what was in my head. An astonishment that someone I had been with for 28 years could act with such viciousness and hate, and the feeling I wanted to prove myself that I wasn't the stereotyped male violent foul mouthed idle drunk/alcoholic she'd described me as to all and sundry.
I'd sat thinking of things I could do to get my own back.........
I'm allowed in my house on Mondays and Tuesdays....should I walk in on the outlaw family having Christmas lunch........
I hadn't walked away had I.....not in my mind. I was still being hooked playing her game. I hadn't walked away. My thoughts unsettled me.
I learnt in here ages ago about the 'no contact' rule for dealing with p/a people and have been enforcing it in the physical world but not in my head.
So no, I won't be confronting anyone....and as soon as I thought that, I relaxed. The Med here I come.
And by not even mentioning updates on my divorce at all, unless perhaps asked, then perhaps my friends will see me as a single person. I feel that way anyway.
It's said "Never explain. Your enemies won't believe you, and your friends don't need it."
I just posted a picture of something I came across, called the grief cycle. I posted it on my own page. I am in the re-organising stage about to arrow out of the circle.