I Have A Feeling Something Big Is Going To Happen...My sister lectured me again. "Leave the jerk!" she said--over and over. When I told her my options are limited by an emotionally delayed, learning challenged, imature bipolar twelve year old, she said "Oh my kids have their issues...They all do. Just get out of there. Go back to work and your son will just have to learn to do his homework and manage alone until you get home.
People make "should" statements all the time. I heard it from my kid's teachers before I started homeschooling this year.
"Your son should stay on task," his lead teacher would advise me, when I asked her about my severely ADD kid.
"How do I accomplish that? Should I go home and find a cure for ADD, Bipolar Disorder, cognitive and executive deficits...by Monday? Or is Tuesday okay? I may need a day or two to get it right. Then we can call Oslo and get me nominated for the Nobel Prize."
Everybody seems to know how to handle your kid better than you. Even people who don't know what it's like to have a special needs kid.
So--my sis wants me to--1. leave (for where?) 2. file for divorce 3. Find a high paying job after being out of the job market for four years. 5. Earn enough money to pay for a house in a nice neighborhood 6. Stick my kid back in a lousy public school and manage 3 to 4 hours of homework after I get home from work at six or six-thirty with my LD kid. (Nothing gets done on his own. 7. Find a way to also be at home to supervise my kid so that he isn't home alone after school.
I could move out of state where she is. Once and a while she could drive an hour across town to the area where I could afford to live, and help me out. ONCE in a while...
I put all the advice aside.
Decided I can't do everything.
What's the action plan?
1. Launch one money little moneymaker at a time.
2. Organize and get rid of my stuff.
3. Keep looking for opportunities and a way out.
One day while I was walking my dogs, I got a feeling. I pray and talk to God all the time, though I am not what you would call a Bible banger, or a person who is "saved."
I have friends that are "saved." They are great people who do so much for the community. Not everyone who is "saved" is open minded and nice--just like everyone in the world, right?
Some one at a party recently, who is homeschooling for religious reasons--announced to me that SHE was a Christian.
"Me too," I said playing dumb. "My kid and I go to Saint X Church. I teach Sunday School."
I discovered I wasn't a Christian because I don't believe the world is 6000 years old.
I don't care if she thinks that. How does believing that the Grand Canyon was caused by Noah's flood going to make me a better human being?
I suggested diversity of opinion, ethnicity, religious beliefs in our civil society is what makes a country like ours the envy of the world. She looked unconvinced, but agreed to leave it at that.
Why couldn't we just talk about our kids learning disabilities? Why was it so important that I recant on evolution to my kid and talk myself into believing that dinosaurs walked with man in the last six thousand years?
Anyway--while walking my dogs, my secular, not so spiritual self was ranting and alternately apologizing to God for the rants.
Suddenly I got a feeling. Something big and life-changing was going to happen for my kid and me.
The thought has been with me and won't leave my brain.
I don't get these feelings often, but they are usually right on the money.
I'll keep working at my not so great action plan, but looking out for whatever it is.
And remember--God may bother with those of us who think evolution is just as big of a miracle as the the whole seven day scenario.
If you talk to God, put in a good word for us. And I will do the same for you.