A Few Hours Make A DifferenceIf you read my earlier story, I am sorry. It's long, blathering and ridiculous. I will leave it up even though I want to delete and make my story a bit more streamlined but I will leave it up -- if for nothing else, than to show this is one hell of a roller coaster ride.
Here's the real update: I don't have the signed document yet, but I am SINGLE.
He has accepted. It's OVER.
We talked as I drove down -- sorted through some money stuff. He said he is really hurt by the financial stuff he has to face (it's all about the money). He told his mom and all his friends. No idea what he told them, I don't even care.
I am at my new "home" -- renting a room from a friend. Tomorrow when he is gone I will get as much as I can and bring it over. I just don't want to see him.
How do I feel now?
Well let's see...
the last 5 or so years (more really) have been like this:
gut wrenching -soul-searching
loneliness (worth repeating)
I am ready to start filling my life with some
NEW FREAKIN' ADJECTIVES.