Completely AloneIt's been a very emotional day. I have no idea why... could be that I spend so much time alone. I feel so alone... In spite of the cherubs I work with every day, who bring me so much joy, love and fulfillment, I feel so worthless and unimportant today. I'm not so out of it that I believe it... I just am having a pity party I guess.
My kids are nearly grown and gone the only time I see them or hear from them is when they need something. Husband, I am completely disconnected from. I"m angry that he still doesn't care enough about me to do anything I ask from him. He can go from Sunday to Saturday...not hear from me and not care. These people are the only real family I have here... and today, I feel as though I sincerely don't matter to anyone.
I just need to matter to someone! Really matter. I need someone to call me and ask me about my day... someone to sit and talk about how I feel or what they have planned for tomorrow.
I know this probably isn't the right place to post this rambling... but I know if he would treat me as though I matter... I wouldn't feel like this.
I'm really really tired of this feeling.
ExistsinHOPE 51-55, F 9 Responses 1 Jan 30, 2013