Ready To Live!!!Throughout our marriage (28 years, 4 kids) although we've had problems, we were always passionate and had an amazing sex life, which I think has actually held us together.
My hubby has had a meltdown for the past 3 years. He had numerous affairs...1 serious affair and many one night stands...sord of like he's lost his mind.. All the while swearing that he did love me and want only me...fast forward 6 months..although I do not suspect an affair..we seldom have sex..and if we do it is because I initiate it. It's not the sex I'm missing its the connection. When we have sex it's like he is "servicing" me. Last night I couldn't take the rejection anymore quietly. Of course I made my advances, and he refused...then we got into a Hugh fight where he actually told me to go and find someone to f--- me...I stopped fighting and went to the guest room to sleep. Sleeping alone is easier than sleeping next to someone and wishing they would reach out to you...
But I am for the first time in my married life considering leaving...enough is enough...I can't make him want me, but I'm an amazing catch!! 49 and look and feel amazing. The rejection and longing is really rocking my self-esteem.
Any suggestions? I don't want to leave, but I will not live like this any longer