I Live In a Sexless Marriage
So I'm back home. It's surreal slipping back into what is currently "home." It's also very surreal knowing that I have a plan and that I won't be staying. My friend was wise as usual. She helped me create a time-frame, discern who I currently know who can be trusted and serve as a support system (one of whom I'm sure can point me in the direction of a good lawyer), and pushed me to go ahead and tell a few of those people, the first being my father. I met him for lunch today and let everything spill. He was sad but supportive. I know he'll have my back in all of this. Telling was very important. I've been glossing over who my husband really is for YEARS to my family, my friends, everyone. Telling also helps me hold myself to my decision.
As you might imagine, husband was especially moody by the time I got home. He said "24 hours is too long for him to care for the kids on his own." Well.... he's going to have to keep at it. He'll learn. It'll get easier. Part of the Plan is to, while giving myself opportunities for self-rediscovery by getting out of the house alone, give him the opportunity to PARENT alone. And hell, he wasn't alone with the kids. He called his mom to come help as soon as I left.
A largely symbolic part of the Plan is I want a new screenname! I have my generic name that I've used since high school for, you know, random accounts, and then I have my newer name that I've used on more personal accounts that's a bit of an inside joke with my husband. I need a new name! This one, laureltree, is okay, but it was hastily chosen and simply a means to an end. I want to come up with something meaningful and new.
As you might imagine, husband was especially moody by the time I got home. He said "24 hours is too long for him to care for the kids on his own." Well.... he's going to have to keep at it. He'll learn. It'll get easier. Part of the Plan is to, while giving myself opportunities for self-rediscovery by getting out of the house alone, give him the opportunity to PARENT alone. And hell, he wasn't alone with the kids. He called his mom to come help as soon as I left.
A largely symbolic part of the Plan is I want a new screenname! I have my generic name that I've used since high school for, you know, random accounts, and then I have my newer name that I've used on more personal accounts that's a bit of an inside joke with my husband. I need a new name! This one, laureltree, is okay, but it was hastily chosen and simply a means to an end. I want to come up with something meaningful and new.
By:
laureltree
Age:
26-30
,
Female
