Silently Screaming On The Inside.
As I lay next to her, I wonder what happened to us. Don't I do enough, don't I try hard enough. Almost 13 years of being together and I still see her as that lovely girl I fell in love with in high school. We have grown so much, built a life and a family. But as the years have gone by, things changed. What is endomytriosis? Why didn't she tell me she's had it three times. Is she lying when she says there is nothing that can be done about it? She says she's full of scare tissue, that no matter what it hurts, so the desire, want and need have left her. She says that she will never tell me no, but when intercourse is reduced to the feeling of just using someones body to ********** with, then what's the point. I feel like I'm dying on the inside. I can justify going outside the the marriage, I just don't know what to do. Please, can anyone help me to understand why I feel like this.