Last NightFor those of you you've read my other stories, you know I've thought about divorce even told my husband I wanted one but he doesnt. Hes changed a little so I had some hope but am not sure at alll what to do. Anyway I still try to fix things and last night was no different. (Sorry for the detail in this, I just need to vent a little)
My husband and I went to dinner and was having a somewhat good night. When we got home we talked and it seemed like he would be in a reciprocating mood. He sat down to watch tv, so I went in the bedroom and changed. I put on a corset and stocking and heels. Anyway I came out and knelt in front of the chair. And told him I want to suck your ****. He then asked me where the remote was. I found it in the chair next to him and threw it aside. I tried to start things and he pushed me away. I told him I was in the mood and he said it wasnt his problem. So I got up and changed.
I wasnt that surprised by his reaction becuase hes done this before, but I justt wish i knew what i do wrong. I wish i could pinpoint what I did to make my husband stop wanting me. I never ever imagined having to beg my husband to touch me. I dont think I've changed that much. Maybe I have. Maybe I just dont look good anymore. I know people will say its him and not me. But my own husband wont **** me, there is something very wrong with that. I just wish he would tell me what I did.
I'm sorry for whining. Im just really hurt today.