why whats ******* wrong with me why cant you be excited to see me anymore what happen to the crazy car sex the days when we couldn't keep our hands off each other how did we become the 50 year old couple with a scheduled day to see each other after 7 years.. it cant be right there must be more because i hate it im young looking good by the time you open your eyes i will be old wrinkly and saggy and the neither of us will want it. i miss it and it feel so far gone that it will never come back ...
insidemyheadd insidemyheadd
22-25, F
2 Responses Feb 10, 2013

I completely hear you and share your exact frustration and thoughts.
I swear I just thought the same thing today.

Your story is a bit short on detail, so I'll just offer you this -

- Dysfunctional marriages **** with your head, get you thinking weird ****, get you making uninformed choices which then feed back into the dysfunctional loop -

Your mission, is to bust out of that loop. If you can short circuit the loop, you can give yourself a bit of uncluttered thinking time, and formulate some informed choices to start making your way forward.

How you might short circuit the loop is the thing. A few days / week away from the dysfunctional situation might be a way. Some individual counselling might be a way. Confiding in a trusted friend might be a way. What would work for you ?

Tread your own path.