I Am An Idiot, Aka EX Talks Of Moving Out!!!So we went to a doc appointment this morning, he asked me to accompany him, I was real tired & grumpy but went along, lots to do today...he wanted me to tell the doc how bad it was getting, so I did. He really is deteriorating.
At the end, at home, he said "I'm thinking of moving out April 1, I want to be able to move out while I still can experience independent living".
Instead of saying "yes, let me pack your bags!" I said "ok, but it would be helpful to me if you waited until May 1, when I'm out of school, or even wait until the kids are out of school at end of June, plus you might get a cheaper sublet"...
WTF is WRONG WITH ME????? I HAD THE OPPORTUNITY TO GET HIM OUT!!!!
I just know I'm going to be on the hook for sh*t and I don't want to deal with it while I'm still in school, but I do want him out!!!!
Anyways I realized what I was saying and so at the end said "or go with your gut, April 1 is fine with me".
i also pointed out that there would be child support, he said he was always intending to pay child support... maybe it's going my way, finally?
I'm just really really tired, lonely I guess, and in transition - for years - and soon I'll REALLY be moving on, and it's a little scary... but I think it'll work out... I applied to a job near THIS house, if he moves out and I get a job here (if the Europe thing doesn't work), maybe it'll work out???
zsuzsilowinger 36-40, F 6 Responses 1 Feb 12, 2013