I Give Up.So, I finally admit defeat. Which is not like me at all. Typically, I am an optimistic man that is willing to take on any challenge. Especially a challenge that evokes passion. But, that passion is depleted, deflated, and non-existent.
My marriage is dead. I’ve been trying to force a heartbeat from a corpse for 4 years.
I have 3 logical choices:
1) Cheat… or outsource, to get my physical needs met.
3) Stay, and accept the death of a love life.
Option 3 is my choice dujour. ba
It won’t be easy, but neither will leaving for that matter. And cheating will inevitably complicate things unnecessarily.
So, I will stay and be the best Daddy I can be to my beautiful, wonderful daughter. I will be pleasantly cordial to my wife, and know that this is all our relationship will be for the foreseeable future.
My wife is an incredible woman in many ways. She still inspires me to be a better person. We just have no intimate connection that transcends a common friendship. And that is by HER choice, not for the lack of my effort.
My effort ends now, and consequently, my expectations end as well.
I sincerely value the sound wisdom and advice that many EP members offer. I even appreciate some of the seemingly harsh replies some members offer. I recognize that all replies are offered from a perspective of experience. That is pretty cool, to me.
So, I will isolate and fade a little bit, until I am re-invigorated for the next chapter of my life.
Thanks for your support