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I Live In a Sexless Marriage

Good Hiding Place

By: FlyMeToTheMooon
Written on February 15th, 2013
Yesterday was V. day, I did not want to talk about that. It was just another day for me. Nothing to whine about.

Today is my last holiday here. Next week I will be back in office and will be fully occupied with the project I am leading now. Always hope that being busy can help me less think about the situation I am in. But no, it doesn't help. I can find my eyes full of tears at any time. And office restroom has become good hiding place.  Oh, any tissue? LOL
By: FlyMeToTheMooon
Age: 36-40 , Female
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14 responses
  • justeasygoing
    justeasygoing

    Well I am sorry for the routine you go through to escape.I wish for something better for you.

    Feb 22
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    • FlyMeToTheMooon
      FlyMeToTheMooon

      Thank you, Justeasygoing! All the best to you too. Just few cries the past month :)

      Mar 19
      1 like
  • FlyMeToTheMooon
    FlyMeToTheMooon

    Update: It is Friday already, and... NO TEARS THIS WEEK!!!

    Feb 22
    3 likes
  • drpinkangel
    drpinkangel

    I know how you feel. I think that right now you are mourning what is & what isn't in your marriage. We have to go through the mourning to get to the acceptance & decision stage. I wish you the best. Hang in there. Take time for yourself in private (maybe have husband take child out for ice cream/etc) so you can have your mourning & reflection time. I don't know about you, but I usually get to the stage where I have no more tears left to shed over particular problems. Take your time & process what you need to process. Make time for yourself to carve out what you like to do (maybe things you liked to do before marriage that you gave up). Hope some of this helped. Keep us posted. Message me anytime you want to talk. Take care & God Bless. :)

    Feb 18
    3 likes
    • FlyMeToTheMooon
      FlyMeToTheMooon

      Thank you so much, PinkAngel, for your very encouraging message. Yes, I have plenty of things to do for myself this year. However, end of the day, when coming home, all those feelings of loneliness, emptiness are just overwhelming me. I still have lots of tears to cry (not sure it is good or bad for me though!).
      Wish you nice evening and sleep well, Angel!
      MR.

      Feb 18
      1 like
    • earchres
      earchres

      MR have you looked into Emotional Freedom Technique..?..I find it useful as I get overwhelmed easily by my emotions. It helps ground me when routine escapes me. I'm so sorry that there is no happy ending per se.

      Feb 19
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    • FlyMeToTheMooon
      FlyMeToTheMooon

      @earchres: Will look into it. Thanks for checking in. Another week went by, less sorrows, no tears.

      Feb 22
      1 like
  • Petrushka
    Petrushka

    I know your why, and it is what it is.

    I have a little idea: you should maybe let slip that you're "developing an allergy" and "really have to find an antihistamine that works".
    Not sure about your work environment but some bosses, if they see a woman in tears going to the restroom more than once, will think she can no longer do her work. That is my experience with large organizations --- seen it happen a few times.
    Added stress in that quarter is probably the last thing you need ....

    {{hugs}} -P.

    Feb 15
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    • FlyMeToTheMooon
      FlyMeToTheMooon

      P, after writing down these words, I have felt much better. Being in management position for several years, I definitely understand that matter. I'll keep your words in mind when going to work. Thanks a lot and hugging back. MR :))

      Feb 15
      1 like
  • jencpa
    jencpa

    Being busy helps me a little. I forget and put in the back of my mind. But it is so hard to do somedays. I hope things get better for you.

    Feb 15
    2 likes
    • FlyMeToTheMooon
      FlyMeToTheMooon

      Jen, exactly! Most of the time it helps. But sometimes, we just couldn't hold back. Thanks for the wish. I will be fine. xox

      Feb 15
      1 like
  • ulae
    ulae

    I want back to work after dinner on V day and worked till 2am the next day. Felt so much better than being at home.

    Feb 15
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    • FlyMeToTheMooon
      FlyMeToTheMooon

      Ulae, I hope you don't often work like that, huh? Take care. MR.

      Feb 15
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    • ulae
      ulae

      Actually, most days I work like that. Then wake up at 7am. I do have a power nap after lunch. There's plenty of time to sleep once I am dead.

      Feb 16
      1 like