Update: One And A Half Years After Leaving Sexless MarriageWell.....
It has been a rough 2013.
Health issues. Chronically sick since the 1st (knock on wood, seem to be coming out the other side).
Furnace ran out of oil last night. Pipes broke last month. Oh. Yeah. My wonderful prince turned into a frog and dumped me on my *** during the hardest time of the year (oh yeah, going to be real anxious to enter that dating market again....I am on a official one year hiatus from men and relationships). Turns out my long time separated- marriage LONG over boyfriend didn't want to keep around a woman who wanted to be more then a Geisha, and broke up with my *** when it became clear that I was going to follow through on my promise to not be in a relationship if those papers were not filed within a reasonable amount of time. He's been living apart from her for SEVEN years. I gave him this heads up a year ago. Went from planned on doing it anyway, to no time fr
Went from adoring me and loving me to throwing me out when I actually asserted my stance and pushing me away HARD. I thought this was different. I thought he was sincere. I must be the most stupid and naive woman on the planet.
All that said, I am STILL glad that I left my sexless marriage. Life is going to have its ups and downs no matter what you do, and who knows what will happen next.
The break up hasn't been fun, but it was much easier after going through the process of leaving my SM and knowing how to set boundaries. I was hurt by it, but not devastated given that it is officially day two now, and I am starting to feel better already (he pushed me hard away the past month, so about a month long bummer I would say). I know that I won't put up with that b.s. anymore. I am a bit scared to be alone which says I need to be alone and overcome that one next.
So, going to heal up. Lick my wounds and get back up.
Not sure what is going to happen, going to just allow myself to be okay with that because we never really know anyway.
Don't be afraid to live your truth.
rosedl 41-45, F 4 Responses 7 Feb 18, 2013