I Love My Wife.It is about 2 in the morning. She is sleeping. I am not. We have been together for about 18 years. We love each other.
I can think back to a time when our sex life was very hot. I long for those days. Over the years things slowed down. That is to be expected. But, I was in my 40's and only having sex a handful of times each year.
Then about three years ago, she had a complete hysterectomy. We have not had sex since. We tried maybe five times at my urging. I gave up about a year and a half ago.
I have tried to touch her, but she says it doesn't do anything. About once a month, I will ask her to touch me. It may be my imagination, but her touch seems mechanical and without sexual energy. Sometimes she even falls asleep.
I have thought about having an affair. At this point in my life, I don't know how to meet other people in that way, and I love my wife. I do not want to develop feelings for someone else. It would not be fair to the other person in the relationship.
I never thought this part of my life would end so soon. I want it back desperately.