Just Getting Worse
Like many of you, my relationship started out with an acceptable amount of intimacy, but it dwindled down to pretty much nothing less than a year after we got married. He spent ten years in prison for child molestation, of which he swears he's innocent, and I believe him 100%. If I didn't, there's no way I could be with him, because I was molested as a child myself and...well, you get my point, right? Anyway, his parole was held up for 21 days due to some new law that passed and according to him whatever happened during those 21 days are the reason he no longer has any interest in sex. I might believe him about that, too, except that he was plenty interested in sex when he first got out. So what changed? I don't get it. The last time we talked about it he said things would get better, but I don't see how they could. It's not like he's doing anything to make it better. He barely touches me and kisses me like we're related. I don't know why he bothers at all, but I should probably enjoy it while I can. I'm not sure how much longer I'll even have that much. I can touch him as much as I want if I don't expect any response, but there's not much pleasure in that, and I don't think that's going to be true for much longer, either. He's not as nice to me as he used to be and I can tell I get on his nerves more than I used to. I don't know what's going to happen with us, or even what I want to happen anymore. I'm very confused right now.