I have no idea what is going on.
As mentioned in my previous story, we have been going to sex-therapy for the last 6 months to help teat my wife’s anxiety +++ around sex and work with intimacy issues.
Where we are up to in the therapy is weekly massage inc touching breasts and genitals. (hers not mine L), it and taken 6 months to reach this point.
Now, last night she felt just like a back massage because she was tired. During this she says she is feeling frustrated and bored with were we are up to.
So I am thinking “O.K, she is saying that she has had enough and doesn’t want to keep at the sex-therapy.”
But then she says “On Saturday I think we should forget about the massage and such and just have sex.”
I’m just about falling out of the bed at this point and all I can manage is “Oh?)
And she goes on to say. “ But I want it to be different, I want to get my self in the mood by getting on some sexy underwear, hop in bed with a glass of wine and read some-thing sexy, then I want to put a blind-fold on and you to come in the room, toss me on my back and do it doggy style passionately.”
My mind is spinning at this point. We haven’t had sex for almost 18 moths because the last few times we tried she was hyperventilating and having panic attacks, now she wants me to do this?
I’m concerned that she has thought up this little fantasy, but when push-comes-to-shove she may flip out and it will undo all the hard work we’ve put in over the last 6 months.
I don’t know if I can perform in such a liberal and forceful way giving that we haven’t even tried to have intercourse in 18 months.
ANd in a way it's not like she's saying that she want's to have sex with me, it's like she is saying that she just wan't to be f*cked. This is from a woman who claims to have no libido at all.
It is all just too bizarre.