Just Look Away..I know you say you love me, but what exactly do you mean by that now? Do you love me like a roommate? Becouse thats damn sure how your making me feel. We used to "look" at one another, now we barely notice each other. Well, I notice you, you just barely notice me. Ok, so I've put on a couple pounds becouse I had a couple kids, do I really disgust you that much that I'm not worth a simple token of affection? Putting on make up, doing my hair & looking sexy for you just isnt worth my time anymore becouse its as if I've become "something" to dodge everytime I come near. Everyday we struggle to make small talk, hell we even struggle to stay in the same room togather during "family" time. Our bedroom has become just that a "bed" room. We barely even sleep in the same bed togather, yet you just laughed me off when I suggested we get seperate beds in the near future. So, here we are just looking like the perfect happy couple to all of our friends...yet, I'm miserable. I'm soo tired of crying and wondering whats wrong with me/ what I did/ what happened to us & why you used to ravish me till I couldnt breath and we were soaked in sweat..and now..now I am just a lonely undesireable simplified house-mate to you.
americanwoman 41-45, F 10 Responses 0 Feb 8, 2009