Well , Well

Okay, it has been a little while since I have posted anything to this group. I wanted to update all. I don't know if my husband is looking up **** anymore. I haven't checked his computer or phone.

To tell you the truth I don't care anymore. I know bad right. I just am tired of worrying about it or stressing over it. I am going to let him take care of him and I will take care of me. By anyway I see fit.

I am thinking of leaving, that is an option. There are some things that have to take place first. I am working on that and will continue to do so until I am able to take care of my children without his money. Sounds bad I am sure.

I don't want my children to grow up without their father, but I can't keep on the path that I am going. I am driving myself nuts with all the wondering and thinking of "what ifs" or "what have I done".

Until the time that I can walk out with dignity intact and children in tow I will stay for now.

BUT I refuse to worry or drive myself crazy untill then.

If anyone has any advice I would appreciate it.

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5 Responses Feb 26, 2009

I think you are doing the best possible thing! GL to you.

I am on my second marriage and felt those "what have a done" moments before my divorce. The only problem is I now think what have I done because of my divorce. (married in another sexless/iffy marriage) I thought that getting a divorce would cure the guilt to my daughter for not loving her dad. Now I am just afraid she will hate me for leaving. At the end of the day you just have to tell yourself that if you are happy your kids will be. No pressure. :) You CAN do this.

I recently read a post here...might be from quite a while back. It simply stated....."work on you....get yourself right until you get to the point where you are comfortable with moving on." and that sounds like what your plans are. Good luck.....I'll be rooting for ya!

I recently read a post here...might be from quite a while back. It simply stated....."work on you....get yourself right until you get to the point where you are comfortable with moving on." and that sounds like what your plans are. Good luck.....I'll be rooting for ya!

It sounds like you really don't need advice - sounds to me like you have it pretty much together!<br />
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Nothing you wrote sounds "bad" to me: you've reached a point where you don't care what he does and you are in control of your own destiny and happiness.<br />
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Since you asked, my advice is to continue to take care of yourself. Know that the problem is his and that it probably has nothing to do with you. Instead of going nuts, realize that you are working towards a goal and be gentle with yourself.<br />
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As for leaving with your dignity, it sounds like nobody is going to take that away from you (which, in the end is ALWAYS the case - dignity comes from within, not from someone else).<br />
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Take care and remember, there is a better life headed your way...