Off I Go Again!

Another week that has flown by and I am getting ready to travel back to my show for another try at the second weekend.   A good friend here told me to think about the lessons I have learned about last weeks trying time.  I have learned to check my oil before I set off myself and not to count on my husband doing this for me.  To leave a little earlier and not feel as rushed.  To enjoy the journey and not to look on it as a hardship.  To be thankful that I made it safely home without killing myself or anyone else.  I still mourn killing that deer but it could have been a lot worse.  

I have learned that I have people that I can count on.  To make sure I buy earplugs so noisy motel neighbors won't disturb my sleep.  Last weekend I misplaced them at home and had to resort to wrapping chewed gum in tissue and stuff this in my ears!  It worked but in the night one fell out so I lost a chunk of hair in the morning when I was getting ready.  Now this was the funny part of my weekend.  So I am still able to laugh at what life dishes out and remember to be better prepared. 

I got to celebrate my daughter's birthday and spend some time with family and friends and for this I am grateful. I saw my children so in love and hopeful with their future mates and my heart was lifted. My pets were overjoyed to see me walk through the door and my dog snuggled up close by my side every night.  My spring flowers are coming up and that was a wonderful sight.  I got to sit on my porch and feel the warmth of the sun on my face.  Heard the spring peepers for the first time this year.  Talked to friends and made tentative plans for some visiting soon.

My husband was surprised that I did not fight with him about not being in touch with me and actually was pleasant this week.  I even got a big hug and a promise to call me.  That was nice.  I heard from so many friends and got a lot of emotional support from you here on EP. Thanks to all of you!

We all have our bad times in life.  I know there will be more of them in my life too.  What helps all of us get through the rough patches in our lives is the connection that we have to each other.  There is always something to be grateful for in life.  Last weekend I kind of forgot this.  All I could focus on was what went wrong with my weekend.  How unhappy I was with my life.  But I still have my life and where there is life, there is hope. 

dartist dartist
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9 Responses Mar 19, 2009

It certainly was. Bud and I saw each other for almost two years and shared so much but this experience was the absolute best. Because his oldest son was having a lot of problems, Bud decided to go back to his wife and wait until they got older to file for divorce. It broke my heart and he cried as much as I did but I understood his decision and respected him for it. <br />
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We kept in touch over the years and he did get his divorce a long time ago but I was married again. He lives about two hours away in that area where we made love. I go and visit him and we are the best of friends. He is probably the man that I am closest to because he understands me. Helps me figure out problems and gives great advice. This story was a sort of tribute to him. To a time in my life when I was truly happy and loved.

Okay, I'm ready, I can't wait to read it----have you posted it yet????

Wrote my story. Is it warm in here or what? I hope you will be entertained as this was the best time I ever had with a man. Now I need to take a cold shower!

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*gets popcorn and coke*<br />
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"Ready..."

Today I was busy catching up on the little things in life that have to be done. My husband and I had a nice talk and went out for lunch. While I was gone he bought two new pairs of eyeglasses when I am watching every penny I spend. I was surprised but what is done is done. I need a haircut and have been putting that off. $20.00 for a haircut compared to $500.00 for glasses is quite a difference. <br />
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A little while ago he came into the kitchen and threw his new glasses across the table! They hit a tool he had laying on the table and I told him to be careful because he would scratch them! He gets like this whenever he gets glasses. Acts like a bear and cusses and storms around the house. So the nice day is marred by his childish actions. I am done fighting with him about anything. It is not worth my energy. <br />
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One of the biggest differences between him and me is that I am thankful for everything I have in my life. My family and friends. My house and my truck and van. Being able to create art that people like and buy. My wonderful pets that give me affection. The great library in my town where I get the latest books and DVDs at no cost. Being able to pay bills even though that gets hard at times. I sometimes feel like a juggler with twelve balls in the air at once! <br />
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On the other hand, my husband is always complaining about every thing in his life. He is so negative where I try to concentrate on the positive. He becomes more and more like his father, a man I truly disliked. Long story that I am not going in to right now. <br />
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He goes to his room soon and I will breath a sigh of relief. Then the evening will be mine to do with what I want. Maybe watch a movie I got from the library? Read one of my latest book picks? Maybe I will write another story? I feel one coming on. <br />
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Sometimes I feel that all I do is complain here so I am going to write about the most memorable experience I ever had making love with a man that I loved. This happened about thirty years ago and was a fantasy come true. I wrote this once before at a writer's conference and the room was dead silence after I read it out loud! Be prepared for an interesting read my friends. Even now I get goosebumps when I think on this wonderful time.

D, <br />
So wonderful to hear that things went well this weekend you deserve it. You are right, even when we have bad days or things aren't going so well for us, we are alive and can appreciate the little things.<br />
Cholley is also so spot on with her post!

Back from my show and I am deer free! Didn't even see one all weekend. It was a beautiful weekend. Sales were better and I made it back home without any problems. Thanks to all my friends for their good wishes and support. <br />
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I hold one of my pillows when I sleep. Feels like I have someone tightly wrapped in my arms. It is a comfort and I will take comfort in this way until something better comes into my life! Maybe a king size pillow?

A loving friend of mine sent me a New Year's message this year "Hope Springs Eternal" ... and I had never heard that phase ... now I believe that is true.<br />
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When I stopped approaching my husband for intimacy this week, I became relaxed, and so did he .. no yelling at me, no insulting me and I didn't have to be on the other end of his refusal. It is a good place to be.<br />
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I pray you will have a safe journey and happy that you are appreciating the good things in life that surround you. I count my blessings every day. And I also mourn my losses in life .. the times I wanted to snuggle and had to rely on my teddy bear (like every night, damn it) , the emotions that I keep hidden for fear that I will be reprimanded for wanting him to want me.... I am moving on to a happier existence and know that with friends like you on EP this journey will be enriched. <br />
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Sending Blessings For A Wonderful Weekend<br />
Children, Pets, Flowers, Sunshine, Raindrops and Friendships -- you are trying and I support you!

I think that is why he has been so nice this week. Certainly better than fighting over whatever has already happened. I will remember this in the future. Another lesson learned. Thank you.