A Block of Ice

Sunday nite, I've been on the road for almost 4 weeks now with 1 to go.  Am I looking forward to going home next week?  Not really............called home this afternoon, but just the usual banter.  We can't seem to come to talk about the elephant in the room.

I have this block of ice in my chest, it is around my heart, and it keeps my heart from breaking.  The ice keeps my heart insulated, so that others cannot get too close.  This way, I won't get badly hurt.  I hate feeling this way, but I survive.  

A friendship has unexpectedly developed of late, and after much thought this weekend, I will not pass if the opportunity presents itself.  In fact, I am making plans to actively pursue the opportunity. I feel no guilt from this, I know myself well enough that I have to employ "self care" in some situations and this is definitely one of those situations. 

I love my wife as a friend, but I realize I cannot continue down this path.




miles2go miles2go
51-55, M
1 Response Mar 28, 2009

Good luck. I hope it works out for you. :)