My Husband Knows But Doesn't CareI know that there is hardly ever a moment that I do not want or think about sex. I may not always feel SEXY but the thoughts are always there. Since my husband accidently read my story, not too much has changed. At the time, I was embarrassed, scared, and worried about his reaction to how I felt. I poured my heart out anonymously to all the sexless married people on this website and never thought he would know my true feelings. It was really bad at first. Now we are back to our ordinary, go to work, come home, eat dinner, help daughter with homework, watch T.V. , he goes to bed, I go to work, he goes to work, I go to bed.....You get the picture, right? I recently took a job working third shift. I really wasn't sure if I would like it but I do. It takes my mind off of lying next to him in bed, trying to snuggle and spoon, but still no sex. I have the bed to myself when I get home, no one snores, no one steals the covers. On my 2 nights off, I sleep like everyone else. (At night!) Most of the time I end up on the computer till about 3 am and then go to bed. It is unbearable lying in bed with the man I love knowing he has no desire for me. I stare at the ceiling. My Mom always told me " You can't force someone to love you!" I have the love just not the lover.
emptyheart 41-45, F 45 Responses 2 Sep 18, 2007