What A Difference A Month Makes

SO at any rate, my wife, on her own or with help I do not know, figured out a few things.  She figured out that *******  actually feel good and she they put her in a better mood (we all knew that here on ILIASM though).  She figured out that when we have sex and not pity sex then things are just plain better between us.  To my wife's credit she took it a step further, she has not criticized me in a month for any reason.  Not one time in the last month has she said one harsh word.  And guess what she got out of the deal?  A husband-turned-slave to making her happy.  

I find myself doing things I would not normally do.  If I see anything that needs to be done around the house or if I can in any way make her day less stressful I do it and it is not forced.  I am well sexed and I just want to serve the woman as if she is a deity.  And the more I act like that the better our sex has gotten.  She is indulging my kinks and exploring kinks of her own and we have had sex about 40 or 50 times in the last month (please do not hate me, I am still here because I love you guys).   The most important thing I have done, I think, is I no longer smother her.  I give her lots and lots of space and now she is free to move about her life with ease.  And that seems to fuel our desire.  hard to explain but just trust me that it is real.  

We have mourned the lost time in our relationship and have dedicated ourselves to making up for lost time and making the best family we can make.  Are we going to go through ****** times again? Probably, but at least we have evolved and once evolution takes place it has a hard time going backwards.  This is quite organic and quite surprising and rewarding.  I guess we just had to hit rock bottom and then dig a little and risk tearing apart our lives. However, we have risen out of the mire we were stuck in and seem to be headed down a road of promise.  

The subtle yet powerful thing in all this change is that things are being done one both our parts without resentment and without the expectations of "getting paid back".  Hard to put into words but please believe me when I tell you all that we are, for the first time, both giving without keeping score and the tension in the house has melted away and the conversations have relaxed.  No, our world is not cotton candy clouds and fluffy bunnies in the yard but it is good and it is real and I feel as though this change is organic and permanent.  I know that last comment is a huge leap of faith but it feels different from our last "attempts" if you know what I mean....we stopped trying because trying is lying and we are now doing.  I feel like I won the marriage lottery :-)

Quite the contrast from my last post but then life is like that sometimes huh?  Thank you all for your support and conversation both on and off the board. I love you guys (in a non-creepy non-stalker way LOL)

Georgia Dad