Want A New Life, Too Chicken To Give Up The Old.
My husband and I have been married 10 years, come this July. Of those, 6 have been sexless. No intimacy at all. He doesn't like to snuggle, touch, "play", no passionate kisses.. just a peck now and then. I have asked him why so many times. First he said he was tired, then stressed, then jobs changed and he was happy, but still nothing. So he said it must be medical.. so he went to dr. and had his testosterone levels check, came back within normal range. Then he made a comment that it was my weight. So I have underwent gastric bypass surgery and have lost 100 lbs. Do to size 16/14 misses. And still NOTHING.
So I have told him I want a divorce. I am finally tired of waiting... I want intimacy, passion, sex and if I can't have it with him while I am married, then...
The problem now, he says he will finally make an effort to change, to be there, in all ways. But after 6 yrs, I am afraid too many walls have been built to protect myself that now, I honestly don't know if I WANT sex with him. I feel I have fallen out of love for him. But I know I still care deeply and don't want to hurt him. He is a wonderful man and my best friend, but I don't want a roommate, and I feel sex with him would just be scratching an itch.. so to speak.
I am so confused.