Day 2 In The OfficeAgonizing. That's the only word to describe it. Like so many of you have said its like giving a hungry man food. I know its early. Things are new. Its exciting.
I know these things. I also know my heart hurts when I have to leave him. Physically. When he looks at me it literally takes my breath away. He makes me feel beautiful. And wanted. And important. All the things I wanted so much from my husband but he did not provide.
The attraction is mutual. Physically I cannot get enough. Looking at him. Touching him. The way he touches me. The hunger I see in his eyes.
How he talks to me. How he challenges me. I want to do this everyday.
My body responds to his as if I were made for him. When we walk...as we did the two years before we started this affair....the sides of our bodies mold together and we walk. Slightly touching. Drawn together like that from the start.
I tell myself this cant be real but I wish and hope it is. I feel terrible that neither of id is free. That people will be hurt. Do I stop it all to save them the pain?