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Flashbacks

I have several flashbacks just about everyday where I am basically thrust back into an awkward position from my past where I either acted like a jackass, or psychopath, or just made an *** out of my self, or maybe made a really bad choice.   

I observe the situations over and over again and am filled with the same feelings I had at the time, or disgust at myself for feeling this way.  

I try to forgive myself for these misdeeds, small or large as they may be, but they literally haunt me and probably will so forever.  It gets so bad sometimes that I literally cry out in real time thinds like "No!" or "stop" or just weird moans.  

I wish it would go away.

 

splintchesthair splintchesthair 31-35, M Jan 25, 2010

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