As I sit here in my bed, reminiscing to those summer days I've spent at Berkeley. I wonder, if I'll ever see you again. From the first time I saw you, when you came to class, to my last glimpse of you at the Bart. I never really thought I'd have feeling so deep for someone.
I would always try to secretly get a seat right across you, just so I can see your smile, while I also look at the window behind you. To also, wake up extra early, just to go to the cafe and catch a glimpse of you while I "try" to finish my summer assignment. Which I couldn't because I was distracted by the way you seem so carefree. One time, I saw you at the Bart station in the morning, which was unexpected, my heart just stopped, and all I can do was look down.
But it was the last week, that we communicated.
Monday, I remember, you smiled at me at the cafe, while my friend and I were working on the quiz. You later then came to use and sat right next to me, I remember I was dying inside and felt that my face had gone red. We talked for a good 20 minutes, I wish it had gone on forever.
Tuesday, my friend and I were walking downtown, and we passed you. I remember just only seeing you, no one else, but then you looked at me. I thought that there was a moment there. Being my awkward self, I looked away and never looked back. I wonder if you were actually looking at me.
Wednesday, the day of the battle of rock, paper, scissor. Oh how I was chosen to go against you and my friend. I was kinda going a little to crazy when I faced you. I didn't even know what I was doing. I would've given the win to you, but I guess I beat you the second round.
Thursday, the day you've finally spoken my name and the last day I'll ever get to see you. I know it isn't a big deal, but it gave me a sense that you actually know me.
Since that Thursday, I don't know if we will ever see each other again. I'm just hoping that winter would come, so that I can come back to Berkeley and maybe find you. But for now, let me relive the moments, I saw you, memorize each places I saw you. So when I come back, I'll trace inspiration from those places.
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18-21, F
Aug 31, 2014