My Little Life
Well I'm 18, 19 next month and I have been with my boyfriend since I was 15. Ofcorse when we met he treated me like a princess and I was head over heels in love. One year and too many black eyes later my parents said if I had no respect for myself then neither did they and I ended up moving in with him.
I used to be so much more outgoing and happy but now I feel like I'm living my whole life revolved around his moods. He's 26 and like to smoke pot, drink and gamble. That's his whole life right there and I actually let this man control my life. Sometimes I get so mad that I've wasted so many years and he just makes me feel horrible about myself but then sometimes I get so sad because he's meant to love me and care for me but it didn't seem to work out that way.
Sometimes I dream about getting away and having a better life but when someone else is in control of your life it's hard to remember how to talk to people normally, let alone make friends or be in a normal relationship, it feels so isolating and lonely living like this and you lose all your confidence and self esteem, I don't have a friend in the world to talk to anymore, he made sure of that...but in the meantime i've got ep to vent on so thank God for small blessings right :P
well thanks for listening if anyone did :)