I Thought I Was Crazy
I have been with my husband since I was sixteen. Married at 20. He has always been passive aggressive but I didn't know there was a name for it. If he has to do something or go somewhere he doesn't want to he will start a fight or say something isn't working right whatever to get out of it. He can never just say I don't want to do that.i he will never pay a compliment or say thank you for anything I do for him. I remember being on my honeymoon thinking we would have sex every night. We Didn't have sex once. I thight it was that I wasn't pretty or skinny enough but I was 120 pounds and very attractive. He doesn't contribute to any household chores or parenting. When something goes wrong or one of the kids misbehaves of course it's my fault because he had no involvement I the first place. My husband never initiates sex. When I confronted him he turned it around and said he tried one night but I rejected him. I have never rejected him. He told me "I'm not begging for it". My mother tried to explain to me when I was younger he was not normal but I wouldn't listen. I live a very lonely life. I sleep in a bed next to a man who will never reach over and hug me or show any affection. He is critical and nothing is ever good enough. You can never get him to make a decision or give a straight yes or no answer. My youngest is 13 and as soon as he goes to college I am leaving. I would rather live alone then play his games. I am tired and worn out. I hope I can make it that long.