Back To School

Last night was a confusion unlike any other. After lying being bedridden for two days of my spring break, I was going back to school.

Being bedridden is not-so-distant memory for me. In fact that was how Mid-August-September 2012 was spent. The three positions that were tolerable were sitting in the inverted lotus position, lying on my stomach in a weird way, or lying on my side. Sitting is class was (and is) intolerable.

In September after much agony, many medical tests, and mental anguish, I was diagnosed with three herniated discs. I was told that I would probably need surgery, and that I should take the semester off, which I did in fact do. On September 27th I had an epidural steroid injection which I knew, may or may not work. Luckily it did work, but I knew that it would not last forever, and my life would return to the hell, which became my new normal.

As of now, I have my good days and my bad days. On my good days I can tolerate sitting, walking, and sleep through the night. On my bad days, I can only sleep for a few hours on end before waking up in pain. Every time that happened I used to scream and cry in middle of the night. By now, I know not to scream, and close my eyes and attempt to sleep through the pain.

Yesterday was one of those days. I went to sleep at three, and am fine with sleeping only six and half hours, but not when waking up in middle of the night is involved. Sitting on the train was torture, and carrying my three pound laptop and moving my leg the wrong way are no longer simple tasks. Well just another six days until my second ESI.

PainMakesMeStronger PainMakesMeStronger
22-25, F
Apr 4, 2013