It's not fun waking up every day with chronic pain.

Every day I experience chronic pain, which I can only decrease as much as 20% sometimes, but I always endure pain.

In 2011, I started to experience neck and shoulder pain. Having worked in an office environment for many years I experienced this often, and booked myself to get a massage. Within 6 months, my head was stuck in a forward head posture and I could not turn my head. I gave up work for a few months as I was in too much pain and was prescribed numerous medication including muscle relaxants, anti inflammatories, valium, cortisone shots, etc. Nothing was helping me with the pain and I was struggling to complete every day tasks. I would spend most of my time laying down in bed.

In 2013, I was diagnosed with Cervical Dystonia. There is no cure and very limited treatment for this condition and it affects every aspect of your life, physically, financially, emotionally, and socially.

I spend most of my day laying semi upright in bed watching tv or on my computer. The life I had before has changed and going to do the grocery shopping for me is an achievement and requires the afternoon to rest. My husband is the only one that helps me and it s hard for both of us, especially as we have a son to take car of also. The simple things in life people take for granted such as going for a run, working, etc are difficult for me. On good days, I can maybe drive for 30 min each way and spend a few hours out, and minimum walking.

It is hard to live with and difficult to explain to people that you can't do as much as you once could such as driving for 1 hour to visit people or engage in physical activities. Some days are OK and some days are terrible. The unpredictability of the day is probably the worst and hardest to plan things around, as you never know how you are going to feel.

Despite this, I know that there are people worse off than I am and I am grateful for everything god has given me in life.
GroundedButterfly81 GroundedButterfly81
36-40, F
Feb 10, 2014