I'm Constantly Looking For Things

     I look for things that I’ll probably never find. Not necessarily physical things. I look for connections with people, but I don’t want to make myself vulnerable to them at the same time. It’s the best way I can explain it, but I really don’t know how to express myself to you without you being in my shoes. You could even go as far as to say that I’m looking for what I’m trying to look for, if that makes sense.

     The search for this mysterious something is probably what brought me to Experience Project, actually. I want to be able to connect to someone. Sometimes I feel like I just need a girlfriend, but that sort of relationship isn’t really what I want, either. And I have friends. Quite enough of them actually. I’m just looking for some satisfaction. I want to feel good about myself, about the world, and confident to be who I am. Lol, see? What I just said has become already different from what I said in the beginning.

     I don’t know, I just hope that I can figure things out someday.

FranticPup FranticPup
18-21, M
Feb 22, 2010