I Look Like My Father

and that disturbs me. I do not want to look in the mirror and be able to see his face. I wish I did not look like him. I would like to forget him.

I also always fear that I am like him inside. Though I know it is not true, I tell myself that I am like him. I could have been. I could have been made to turn-out just like him. I was always told that I was going to be.

demonizd demonizd
31-35, M
4 Responses Feb 15, 2009

I'm so afraid of becoming like my mother. I don't look like her, but I possess so many of her traits and the last thing I want to be is her. I understand how you feel. If you're aware of the things that you don't want to be, then it'll be a lot harder to become that.

I agree with bublina. You won't be like that b*****d if you don't want to be. You have control over yourself. <br />
albeit on a much smaller scale i have eliminated unwanted traits i got from my parents. it can be done, given time and effort.

Thankyou for commenting. I know I have to stop being so cruel to myself, I don't know why I still tell myself these things now that noone is telling me I'm bad. Each time I read your words of encouragement it really does help me, even if I may seem to still be self-hating.

genetically, you cant avoid your genes... thats why you are resembled to him. <br />
Maybe you have some traits your father does, but it doesnt mean you are like him. It's only up to you how you wanna behave. You dont have to be similar to him. Be yourself, without hatress, without anger, smiling and seeing the cup half-full and not half-empty. I know it's hard to be positive in all... but you can try at least a bit. :)