20 Years Old And I Look Abnormally Young For My Age
I have dealt with this ever since I was a kid. Up until about the age of 3, I developed pretty normally, but as time went on, my growth slowed down a lot. By the time I was 10, I looked about 5 or 6 and by the time I was 13, I looked about 8 or 9. (perhaps even younger) I didn't actually have a growth spurt until I was about 15, and by that age, I still looked about 9, maybe 10. By the time I had graduated high school, I could've passed for a freshman in high school, perhaps even a middle schooler. By the end of high school, I had reached a height of about 5'10'', maybe 5'11''. By this point, I didn't think this whole age perception thing would be a big deal, but it's been affecting me ever since. I am 20 years old, going on 21 (this July) and if I had to take a guess, I would say I look about 15, maybe 16. (even with facial hair) However, I've actually had people tell me I look as young as 14 or even 12. Even some of the kids from my old high school look noticeably older than me and I am a second year college student. My frame is very small too for a 20 year old. And to make matters worse, my voice isn't very deep. I've gotten multiple tests done, including hormone tests and X-RAYS, but every time I've gone, they've found nothing wrong. Apparently, I am perfectly "normal." (which in my opinion is complete BS) What bothers me the most about this problem is the fact that I am not respected as an adult and more often than not, treated as a kid. I've been condescended to on several occasions and it's incredibly embarrassing. This is something I am extremely self conscious about and the comments or insinuations I receive about my appearance only make it worse. I've actually started avoiding social situations as often as I can and don't feel like leaving the house because of this issue. (I live at home and commute to college every day) I feel like a joke to people. Just the other day, I was going to pick up groceries and these two women made a comment about the jean jacket that I was wearing and muttered something about me looking like a "12 year old playing dress up." I typically wear dress shirts, polos, button down shirts and jeans and yet, I am still perceived as a kid by others. I treat others with respect and try to act my age. But I've almost given up and just don't want to try anymore. I am frankly sick of how judgmental some people can be.