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A Letter To My Son

Dear Ibrahim,
        Though you never knew me, you were the most precious thing I had ever seen with my eyes or held in my hands.

Though you never took your first breath, you took my breath away when I held you in my arms for the first time. 

You are my first born and you will always be my most precious. I held you in my arms when you came into this world and I held you in my arms as I lay you to rest. 

I only ask that God whispers in your ear and lets you know just how much I love you.

I sometimes ask God why he took you from me but I know you were always created for Him and never for me. You were brought into this world only to be taken away because God just couldn't wait another minute to hold you in His arms and delight in you as I delighted in you when you were in my arms.

Though you never took a breath, you taught me more in your short life than the wisest wise man could have taught me in a lifetime.

Oh my son, The sacrifices I made to make sure you came into this world only to have God take you away from me would have been enough to crush any other man but you were my biggest trial and my proudest moment. Your very existence showed so much to me and even more to God.

The tears of joy I shed the first time I saw you are the same tears of joy I shed now as I tell you just how much I love you. I think about you all the time and wish you were here with me now. You should be taking your first steps right about now and I can see you take those steps in my mind.

As tiny as you were you had the ability to change a grown man. I was ready to take care of you and keep you safe from all harm. I was prepared to sacrifice everything to make sure you had all that you needed.

Even now I shed tears of joy knowing that we will one day be reunited and I will once again hold you in my arms. For in that day that our God tells me, "well done my good and faithful servant", He will welcome me into His kingdom and there God will hand you to me and I will once again hold you in my arms and I will shed those same tears of joy as I did the first time I saw you and then we will be together forever.


       
With all the love I have for you my son,
Daddy
calicuz calicuz 41-45, M 39 Responses Jan 30, 2011

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Oh my lord, I'm speechless. I'm so, so sorry.

Thank you for taking the time to read it. God has since restored and I now have a little boy that's 3 yrs old. :)

Dear Mr. calicuz,
I am crying as I read your letter. Your words: you are my biggest trial and my proudest moment....Only those who have gone through pain can utter such with purity...I am sorry. The loss of your son isn't in vain; this sacred point in time in your life's journey, will forever serve as anchor between God and you. In the final analysis, we are lucky, to have experienced God's touch, the nearest that we could ever be to Him. God bless.

Thank you for your kind words and taking the time to read this. We are lucky, as you say, and blessed to experience Gods touch. The biggest trials he gives us are many times His way of telling us He is still there by our side, as was in my case. God bless to you too.

God breaks us, He transforms us, He restores us. We are never the same again. We like to think that we are warriors on earth, thereafter.

Well, I have a long way to go before becoming a warrior, but I'll certainly never be the same again, and I'll always know God is always beside me.

We like to think we are; only a few have gone through the dark nights of the soul (darkness)...but from the ashes of adversity, we emerge a new being.

Yes, I often refer to myself as a Phoenix, even though the Phoenix is not Biblical, rising out of the ashes, but it's not myself, it's God that raises me up.

Ugggh, answer so good...Nice meeting you, sir. Can I include you in my circle of friends?

Certainly. :)

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Im so sorry i didnt know i wouldnt have brought it up in the conversation we had before im so sorry for your loss and this is beutiful what you wrote. I really apologize for bringing it up if i had known i would've never thought about bringing it up.

Not to worry, we had another baby after the first "Ibrahim" passed away. Our second child is now 3 yrs old he is loved very much and very spoiled to tell you the truth.... lol... There is no need for apologies. :)

That's really beautiful.

Thank you.

Omg I shed tears for you and your little angel I am so sorry for your loss

Thank you "suzy," I'll see my angel again, it's just a matter of time. :')

This is one of the most heartbreaking stories I have ever read. I'm so sorry for your loss but after reading this I believe that God chose the right man for this trial. God bless.

Thank you for those words of encouragement. I have told a cousin of mine that if God had chosen anyone else in the family to go through this trial they may not have been able see it through and let God show his strength, grace and mercy through it all. God bless you and thank you for taking the time to read my letter and commenting. God bless my friend.

This really tugged on my heart strings, so well written and most beautiful! I'm so sorry for your loss, but yes, I too believe we will all be together again. Keep the faith! : )

Thank you my friend, and I'm sorry for not responding sooner, but I am just reading this now. Somehow your comment slipped through my notifications. Thank you for the compliments and I WILL keep the faith. We will all be with our loved ones we have lost in the end. God bless.

*tears* what beautiful words.

Thank you, they were from my heart.

And what a big heart you have!

Thank you for your touching post. I cried because you completely identified with the thoughts and emotions I had with my stillborn son. I had him the day the before Mothers Day 19 years ago .... I still cry, but only for me. I know where he is. There is a song by Twila Paris that I love . . Visitor From Heaven ... If you haven't heard it you should get it. We played it at our son's burial. It helped me with closure (although it will never be fully closed until i embrace my Lord and then find and embrace my son) ...Thank you again for sharing your heart!

Believe it or not, this still makes me cry too when I read it. It is important for us to remember that our children are in the presence of the Lord now, and we will be reunited with them soon. They've just gone ahead of us, as so many family members have. I too feel there isn't full closure until I see our Lord and my son again on that great day. Thank you for taking the time to read my letter. God bless you. :)

My condolences for your loss. I can't begin to imagine the pain you feel. Thank you for sharing these heartfelt words.

Thank you Maverick and I'm sorry that I am just reading this now. These are definitely words straight from my heart, Thanks for reading.

You are welcome, sir. I can't even begin to imagine your pain. The post tugged at my heart strings as I read it.

I too cried as I wrote it.

awwww so precious. i'm sure even getting this comment from me forces you to relive the memory. it is interesting that abraham is the one who God called to take his son's life as a symbol of what it would feel like for God to take Jesus' life. i wish you all the best, and praise the fact that you are a MAN.

Thank you for taking the time to read it. Yes, we named him after his mothers father and I liked the name because it is a strong name, like Abraham was strong in obeying God, even if it meant taking his own sons life. Thank you for the best wishes and God bless you and your family as well.

This was amazing. Thank you so much for sharing your heart. You are an amazing man.

Thank you my friend for taking the time to read it. I don't think I'm that amazing, but I do know that the trials in life are what build our character. God bless.

may GOD rest your son Ibrahim soul ....

Thank you my friend and thank you for taking the time to read my letter.

UW ... you are strong man . i am happy that you are my friend.

I'm so sorry. I am truly touched by your heartfelt words.

Thank you for reading it.

Wow ... I came to visit your profile because of your comment on "The Warriors" and I found this post. I can't imagine how it must feel to loose a child. Your heart felt letter to your child really touched my heart ... you have my sympathy and my admiration.

Thank you, I have just come from your profile having read about Julie. Thanks for taking the time to read my letter. It's always difficult to lose a loved one, and the babies it hurts a little more, but knowing he's in a better place waiting for me helps to comfort me.

thank you for sharing..god bless

Thanks for taking the time to read it, and God bless to you too.

Beautifully shared, I lost two precious babies in miscarriage. Isn't our God wonderful to promise that we will know them when we get to Heaven! We will see them and we will know them! God is good!

Yes He is. "God is good-All the time."

painfuly touching to read. Dont know what else to say

Thank you, you've said more than enough.

Like his name. Hope I am pronouncing it correctly

Yes, Ee-Brah-Heem. It's Arabic for Abraham. His mother is an Arab.

I would like to say more than just rating this up, but I can't right now. That's how deeply you have touched me tonight.

Thank you for taking the time to read it.

Thank you for sharing this. I started crying in the 4th paragraph, and cried all the way through. Beautifully written, though I am very sorry for the loss of your son.

Thank you. I cried all the way through myself. Thank you for the compliment and I will see my son again.

I know you cried, also...your tears came out in your writing. And I know he is waiting on you.

Heartrending & Beautiful ❤

Thank you very much. It really came from my heart.

so sad :(

Yes, but I will see him again. :) Thank you for taking the time to read it.

Your experience brings me many emotions. Sadness for your loss, joy for your strength, and serenity for your faith. You have very powerful words. Please continue sharing your experiences. It makes a difference. Thank you for all your wisdom.

Thank you my friend. Your words are also encouraging. God bless.

God needed a very special angel....

Yes He did, and now he is in the arms of God. :D

Beautiful, sweet and touching! Hugs to you!

Thank you.

That was beautiful! So sorry for your loss but you already know he is safe with our Lord and in Paradise waiting to see you. God Bless you! <br />
Its so encouraging to see someone with so much love and belief in his heart with such a huge loss.<br />
My prayers are with you! Hugs~

Thank you. Sometimes all we have is our "faith" to keep us going. God bless you and your family.

A touching piece

A touching piece

Thank you, that means a lot to me.

god bless u and ur child

Thank you, and God bless you and your family.

I am so so sorry.. :(

Thank you frootie. I still miss him and wish he were here, but God has another plan.