A Letter To My SonDear Ibrahim,
Though you never knew me, you were the most precious thing I had ever seen with my eyes or held in my hands.
Though you never took your first breath, you took my breath away when I held you in my arms for the first time.
You are my first born and you will always be my most precious. I held you in my arms when you came into this world and I held you in my arms as I lay you to rest.
I only ask that God whispers in your ear and lets you know just how much I love you.
I sometimes ask God why he took you from me but I know you were always created for Him and never for me. You were brought into this world only to be taken away because God just couldn't wait another minute to hold you in His arms and delight in you as I delighted in you when you were in my arms.
Though you never took a breath, you taught me more in your short life than the wisest wise man could have taught me in a lifetime.
Oh my son, The sacrifices I made to make sure you came into this world only to have God take you away from me would have been enough to crush any other man but you were my biggest trial and my proudest moment. Your very existence showed so much to me and even more to God.
The tears of joy I shed the first time I saw you are the same tears of joy I shed now as I tell you just how much I love you. I think about you all the time and wish you were here with me now. You should be taking your first steps right about now and I can see you take those steps in my mind.
As tiny as you were you had the ability to change a grown man. I was ready to take care of you and keep you safe from all harm. I was prepared to sacrifice everything to make sure you had all that you needed.
Even now I shed tears of joy knowing that we will one day be reunited and I will once again hold you in my arms. For in that day that our God tells me, "well done my good and faithful servant", He will welcome me into His kingdom and there God will hand you to me and I will once again hold you in my arms and I will shed those same tears of joy as I did the first time I saw you and then we will be together forever.
With all the love I have for you my son,
calicuz 41-45, M 27 Responses 25 Jan 30, 2011