The Strange Things You Think When You Find Out Your Child Will Die

We've had 4 boys, the third died when he was 4 days old. We knew he had problems before he was born but I always thought he would be okay. Our second had stomach reflux when he was a baby so for the first two years he would often wake up crying because of the burning in his throat. Being upright always helped, so I would often spend the wee hours pacing the first floor of our house, back and forth, back and forth with him in my arms. When our 3rd boy was born, and it finally sank in that he wasn't going to make it, all I could think was I will never have the opportunity to pace the floor in the middle of the night with my baby.
multiwave0 multiwave0
41-45, M
3 Responses Dec 4, 2012

Oh my lord. I'm so sorry for your loss. I'm trying to think of something else to say, but I simply can't. I'm so sorry. :(

That's so sad. :(

Sorry for your loss.

Probs karma, dont take it out on other people though