I Lost My Daughter....


I was not like the other girls my age, I didn't want to be a mom, I didn't want to have kids, I wanted than to be a cop, but so many things changed, and it changed my whole life, my whole dreams, it changed everything.

 

Now I would Like nothing more than to be a mother, *but that is another story* sadly, I don't think I will ever be able to have a child *Again, that is another story*

I was 16 years old, and had just been in a terrible car accident....

 

When I was rushed to the hospital  I was bleeding, not only from my head, but from other places. What had happened was, when We had got into the car accident,  *Yes I was wearing a seat belt* I had hit the dash board with my stomach, which caused a huge bang, there for, it killed the baby right on.

 

When I was at the hospital, and they did an ultrasound to check the heartbeat of the baby, they couldn't find one. They kept looking, and was not able to find it and it was determined that the baby had died...

 

Since this day, I have not forgiven myself for what has happened. I have not been able to let it go, I have never really dealt with it, till today, and that makes things a lot harder for me, and on my end.

 

I knew the sex, of my baby, it was a baby girl, and I had her name already picked out. Her name, would have been, Emily....

 

I miss her so much....

 

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she has, and always will be a part of me....

 

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1 Response Feb 12, 2010

oh sweet girl...<br />
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so sorry for you loss...<br />
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Thank you for sharing your story....and yes...she will always be a part of you.<br />
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God bless you and little Emily