I Love You So Much, And Wish I Could Have Fixed Whatever Was Wrong. I Love You.
Well, honestly this happened yesterday, August 7, 2012 . I need to talk about this with people who know how bad it hurts. How you feel like you can't breathe, time is slow, memories running through your head. I guess I should explain what happened. My 22 year old brother went to his friends house about 30 miles north of us, on August 6th. Yesterday, August 7th, my mother started screaming from her room, I ran in there to find her screaming, "My son can't be dead!" My brother bought an illegal firearm and went into his friends bathroom and shot himself. My brother was only 22. He didn't get to live, he didn't get to do anything. He was so young and full of life. So why would he do this? I love him so much, and I NEVER told him. I regret all of my mistakes, and I would give ANYTHING to be able to convince him to not do this. I just want him to walk through my front door. I want my big brother back.