Things I Wish I Could Say Out Loud

I feel like im living in memories and the past and that can't last forever its not the way it is supposed to be. Today is yet another day when I feel like I wish I could just end all of this. No one to talk to. No one to notice. Everyone ignores anything that happens. Why should I care? Because the people that used to be my best friends can't even bother to notice me. I'm back to being stuck alone. Work by myself. Never say a single word to anyone anymore. I don't see a point in trying. No one responds to anything I say or do so I ma as well just disappear. Constantly surrounded by people talking and laughing and having fun while I sit here and type this and I'm stuck around all of them but not included in anything happening. I hear a lot of what has happened in everyone's life. I hear so many secrets that no one is supposed to know but no one pays any attention to the fact that I'm there. I'm completely alone in a world moving so fast that everyone else is caught up in the moment and I'm just trying to get through the day.
Keilamarie Keilamarie
18-21, F
Sep 20, 2012