Gone

What happened to us, was it decided?

I can’t really remember. That’s the problem lately,

I can’t even remember, was it you or I?

Did the intertwining paths change course?

Is this what we needed?

What do you look like now?

The eyes that once looked on with love are now faded,

They can’t see what they once saw,

The body and mind moved on, it left before the heart had time.

Whip lashed and shocked.

We were young, but it was special, it was real

And like a photograph that captures the life and colour,

It fades too over time and I can’t remember where we left the negatives.

Maybe I don’t even want to find them.

Maybe I’m too young, to keep good love from going wrong.

How can I just forget and move on?

How can I leave behind those years?

They weren’t good, infact I am happier now.

How can ignore what I felt?

How can I deal with losing that?

My heart is no good anymore.

It’s gone, I’m gone and you’re gone.

All I’m have left are ghostly images of a life that’s gone.

Everywhere I go the ghosts we knew follow me.

When you left, you took it with you,

And you’re keeping it vindictively,

You would never have done that before, but you do now.

I don’t know you or me anymore but I know him and her,

But I want to know me, not her,

That’s why I had to leave.

She was so innocent and beautiful,

So full of life, you took her though,

You made her feel guilt and shame,

And so she left and was replaced by a shadow.

She doesn’t even live on in memory.

I left her behind when I left you,

And now I know me, and I like me,

I’m better off now, just haunted and I’m not sure the wounds will heal.

And I can’t give him all of me, because I can’t break down the wall.

He wants to heal me and hold me and love me

And I can’t let him because I’m too far-gone.

He is so much more than I could have ever wished for

And I can’t. I only had so much to give

And everyone took what he or she could and didn’t give it back to me.

They left me with nothing. I don’t want to give you nothing.

I’m trying to give you me but my heart is gone cold,

With it, it took the dreams of a lifetime and the belief in love.