I lost my best friend of 18 years, After a long and devastating battle with bone cancer. If you look at my age you will realise that's pretty much as far back as I can remember. It has been over two years, and today I sobbed for well over an hour, it's not always like this, just sometimes when I'm off work. I used to cry because I missed her or because she was gone. But now all I can think of is what she will miss, when I will need her and how it's going to be a really long life without her. (Don't panic I'm not suicidal) I know there are no answers and everyone has to grieve in their own way, but (and I'm aware this is illogical) I want her back, I'm so done with her being dead, done with being lonely. I have considered making a new friend but no one seems to even come close. It seems that after my melt dowe yesterday that I have passed devastated and I'm filled with frustration. Has anyone been through this?

*please don't write religious replies.
HarrietsRevenge HarrietsRevenge
26-30, F
1 Response Aug 27, 2014

Be your own best friend.
I find getting into new hobbies, is a good way to meet like minded people.
Then also forgive the situation that took her.
The courage of life is to be with the way it is... and not the way you want it to be.
We grow in the pain, and we have then the choice not to linger to long in the pain. We let it be, then move on.
Then still love her, just sit in the love.
Quote for you:
The soul would have no rainbow, had the eyes no tears. John Vance Cheney