I went out biking with my brother 4 years ago on August 30th 2010. The brakes on his bike didn't work and I saw him go airborne and land on the cement head first. I lose memories of him but that one day will not leave my head. I remember oy detail for detail. It hasn't gotten any better since then and I guess I just wanted to get this story off of my chest. I didn't get to tell him goodbye or I love him that day. The last couple of things I said was how annoying it was for him to come with.
I still remember how cold his skin was in that hospital bed. Then how quickly time went by till his funeral. Seeing him lay there was as am older brother I wondered how this could happen. I was supposed to protect him.
I guess I just needed to let it out for once instead of hold it in.
roughie64 roughie64
18-21, M
1 Response Aug 17, 2014

I'm sorry for your brother, there are times when we blame ourselves for things we didn't do, you didn't mean to let him die, this isn't your fault, stop blaming yourself.