I Love and Miss You Sam

Today is one of the worst days in my life. I lost my cat sam from cancer. He was like a child to me. I tried to prepare myself for his death but never thought it would be this hard. I had to watch him die and I just petted him and told him I loved him and its ok to go and that I would be ok, I lied to him cause Im not ok. He kept gasping for one last breath over and over so I called the vet and she said to bring him down. He died on the way there. That was the worst thing ever, leaving the vet with my baby in a box. My heart hurts so bad. I will miss him soooo much, he was like no other cat. Im afraid I will never find a cat like him, no cat can compare to the bond we had. Everything reminds me of him, I tried to eat some cereal this morning and just balled cause he wasent there trying to grab my bowl with his paw to get my milk. I just hope this pain gets better, Im trying to be strong cause Im 5 weeks pregnant and need to take care of myself

tammy482 tammy482
31-35
Mar 21, 2009