Anyone Else Lost Their Child To Depression And/Or Parental Alienation SyndromeI had a serious bout of depression 8 years ago at the breakup of our family life which resulted in me admitting myself for help.(to try to speed up my recovery). I was the one who had to leave because it was my ex's house and I left my only son with him because I truly thought that was the best thing for him at the time, even if it was only temporarily . Although, the split was supposed to be amicable and I had still expected to see my son daily, my ex quickly changed the locks to the house once I'd gone to hospital and stopped me picking my son up from school and using my mental ill-health against me. Although, up until last year, I was seeing my son every couple of weeks I haven't seen him for a year now because, on trying to assert myself when feeling stronger, his father has now brainwashed my son into thinking that I'm mental and he told me he would not see me unless I went back on medication. The truth is I was actually fine then but this always happens when I try to fight for more rights with my ex, he realises I've become stronger, and he does all in his power to bring me down again so he keeps the upper hand.
I feel so hopeless as a mother and ashamed that I can't f ight for my son's needs in any way, that I feel I'm not worth him seeing me anyway so. although we are e-mailing regularly now, I have not even suggested we meet up. I feel I have ruined my son's life and that I should have stayed in the miserable situation I was in with my ex for many years to at least be with my child still. I really didn't think my ex would be this cruel and to carry on being so cruel for so long. I feel I'ven ruined my son's life. I think about him all day long and don't feel capable of working at the moment as my concentration on anything else at all is so poor. Things weren't supposed to t urn out this way and I worry so much about what my son's going through and how it's affecting him.
Anyone else in a similar situation in Hampshire/Dorset area especially.