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The Loss of An Angel

  My beautiful daughter was 29 years and six months old when she passed away due to childbirth complications.  She left us with a beautiful granddaughter to share our lives with, but she also left us with an incomplete family and the loss of the heart of me.

   It's been 3 years since her death, and I still feel like I can't breathe.  I go through the movements of my life because I have to, and I wonder if I'll ever do it again because I want to?  I don't know how to move forward when I feel like my feet are planted in concrete.  I loved her greatly and I miss her desperately.   How does a Mother mourn the loss of her daughter?  I don't feel like I'm doing very well...

lostathome73 lostathome73 51-55 6 Responses Apr 4, 2009

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I FEEL FOR YOUR LOSS. I KNOW IT MUST BE HARD AND I DO NOT LIVE SO IT MUST BE HORRID.
BUT PLEASE HONOR HER, IF YOUR SAD ABOUT YOUR DAUGHTER YOUR GRAND-DAUGHTER WILL PICK-UP ON IT AND IT CAN NEG. EFFECT HER. REMEMBER HER WARMLY SHARE THERE WITH GRAN-CHILD. IT CAN SOME BELIEVE EASE THE LOSS AS SHE WILL NOT BE GONE, I KNOW IT'S EASY TO SAY MUST BE NEAR IMPOSABLE TO LIVE WITH. I WILL KEEP YOU IN MY PRAYERS ALONG WITH ALL THOSE I PRAY FOR WHO HAVE SUFFERED SUCH LOSSES.

I also lost my daughter at 29, due to serious injuries received in a car accident. The first 9 months I thought about suicide several times and came close once. I really don't think I will ever be the same. I'm afraid I will forget how her voice sounds....or how she smelled

It must be hard to be in the situation be strong

No one mourns the 'right' way. To anyone who hasn't lost someone so loved, so missed as a child, grieving is short and immediate. At least, I felt that. Eight months, three years, seven years- until your death- you are grieving. You can't 'heal'. Because that would mean your heart was mended, repaired, made better. And how can that be without our children?

I am still stuck in the Loop. A loop made of sudden outbursts of tears and grief at random things which no one but you realises the significance of. A loop of sadness, dreaming of your child and waking up to a nightmare. Of having nights where sometimes dying might make it all better. And knowing that you must go on living and surviving the days without your child.

Missing Izzie, 11.5.2000-14.6.2006. Aged six, killed in an RTA, would be thirteen. I have only survived the last seven years through the strength and love of my four surviving other children, and my husband.

I lost my beautiful 31 year old daughter to a blood clot in December, 2009. Five months ago. I am still in shock and like you, make it through each day because I have to. I miss her so much and cannot believe I have to live out the rest of my life without her. I feel as though a part of me is gone - there is a hole in my heart that will never heal.

I know it iis hard.<br />
I lost mine in a differnet way .<br />
My was boy and I give up to child things I h ad.<br />
Bipolar and could not take care of him.<br />
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So I understand little bit.<br />
We are talking.<br />
But it is like talking to a stranger to me.<br />
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Hang in there.<br />
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Lashanda