EmptinessI Have A Problem That Am Hoping Someone could help me on.
Am 19 and have fallen Completly in LOVE with this girl who now is a close friend, she is to me just PERFECT I could have not imagine her any better. But she has a BF which she is living with and she sometimes gives clues that she is wanting to leave him. But what I don't want is to tell her to move in then feel all like Uncomfitible. Before I started talking to her she was just a girl who was there u know I didn't like her,I didnt pay attention to her. But once I started to talk to her and she some what open her trust to me I just fell in love with her because to me she I that girl who has gone thru hell and back and still smiles to I just love her. Not to long ago somebody mention to her that I like her and she texted me about it and she told me she likes me too but she still has a BF and I didn't want to just say come live with me cuz I was nervous. Now time has passed and my feelings for her have just grown more but I guess her feelings for me decreased to the point where she sees me as just friends. She has told me a funny thing that she is Completly in love with this other boy and she feels she can never bee with him because her has a girl too. So it's funny for me because the way she feels about him, I feel about her :(
And the reason I ask for help is because my purpose in life is to help EVERYONE, mostly my family because they have been broke all there lives. I feel god gave me a reason to be on this earth and that is to help those people in need. My goal to become helpfull to my family money wise is to become an MMA fighter and since I was a kid I set my goal to be one no matter how painful. But now with all this Problem with this girl I have Completly lost my motivation and also I lost who I was so now I feel Completly empty and feel like I just wanna die, but because I lost my motivation to help people. PLEASE SOMEONE HELP ME AM NOT A PRETTY BOY WHO ONLY THINKS ABOUT MY SELF I DEEPLY WANT TO HELP THOSE PEOPLE WHO NEED IT, SO I ASK IF ANYBODY COULD HELP ME AND GIVE MY ADVICE. Thank you