Losing Him

Losing my father so unexpectedly was the first devastating loss in my life. Some days I feel so unsure about the future, unsure about how to move forward. Each day is a next step but sometimes it feels like stepping backward instead of forward.  It has almost been a year and it doesn't seem like it is easier, just harder with each day of him not being here.  I want to talk with him again, hear his laugh and just have him play another practical joke again. I miss him more than anything and right now it doesn't seem like the future will be any better.
estacy26 estacy26
26-30, F
Dec 6, 2012