If One Of These Had To Hapen To You, Which Would You Rather?

Would you rather have your father die knowing that he loved you and then not ever being able to see him again other than your memories?

Or would you rather he left you and your family behind, not loving you, but knowing he’s okay somewhere out there with hopes that you might see him again and that he'll accept you into his heart?

My father died when I was just about 6 years old, I have few memories but I knew he loved us a lot. Sometimes though, I wish he was just out in the world somewhere living life. If that were the case I'd look him up and travel out to see him and maybe, just maybe, he'd see me not as a stranger but as his long lost daughter.

CourtGatekeeper CourtGatekeeper
18-21, F
2 Responses Feb 20, 2010

Better to have lost a loving father than to have to deal with a bastard that hated you all of your life. I had the latter that left and I ended up having to tell him to leave me alone and never contact me again. So be glad that you had a loving father.

I have asked him to come see me in my dreams many times. I've dreamt of him once and it was a weird, unusual dream. Once, out of 4015 nights. What am I doing wrong?