Beatrice Elizabeth Gilliam...~*nan*~

i was 9, the day i learned my nan was dying of cancer. that was 23 years ago. mum kneeled before me and my younger brother and told us the heartening news. the cancer was everywhere - in her lungs, brain, throat...etc... i intentioned to be alone, but my younger brother followed me into the room. i shut the door and we sat down, pressed our feet against the wall and cried...3 years later...after a long battle with the greatest evil, my sweet, beautiful nan, left us...i never even got to say goodbye before she was lowered into the ground...why? because i was made to stay home and wait for the oil delivery...i would have gone to her funeral but my older sister fancied my mourning costume more than her own and my mother made me switch with my sis. being older, her clothes were too large for me and so i was not presentable to attend the funeral...not much has changed since still the least valued person in my family...

rest in peace, nan... i love you...
Clark44 Clark44 31-35 2 Responses Oct 21, 2011

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May she rest in peace- i know you must always think about your grandmother and miss her terribly. I would be comforted in knowing that shes an angel now looking out for you. hugs i have always have very vivid dreams of people that have passed on during my lifetime but they are happy as can be esp my grandmother and close relatives and friends. I always feel their presense they with me too like i'm never truely alone in this world.. I am happy they are happy they are enjoying their time even though life ended much too early for them

thank you, love. yes i do miss her. granted, the pain has lessened over the years, that is, until im alone and have nothing else need doing...i can\'t help but think about all the hurt ive felt in my life. but to know that she\'s no longer in pain and has finally been reunited with her brothers, my beloved great uncles...i cant help but smile. thank you.

Your nan knows how you felt, and thats what matters more than anything. But I'mreally really sorry about what you've been through.

thanks pinkie - that really means alot.