I loss my husband, best friend and soul mate to cancer on the 28/01/2012. He was a vegetarian, never smoked or into alcohol but was diagnosed with bowel cancer in 16th December 2011 and died 48hrs after starting his first Chemo (not terminal) . We're blessed with 3 young children, all hope was dashed as we talked briefly few minutes before his passing, went to prepare his breakfast and to sort laundry out and he was gone by the time I returned to our room. We're Christian but still it's extremely difficult to just accept that he's in the Presence of our Lord or called home. My youngest son who's 10yrs said "why did he have cancer as he lived a perfect lifestyle and why did he die so soon and suddenly when we prayed" Life is so unfair and difficult to just move on, we were together for 20yrs, he was my Sweetheart and he called me his Angel!!!! My life has completely changed, I find myself just reflecting on what could have been as our daughter will be going to University in September 2012 and the years we spent together, what happen to all our dreams and hope. I go to bed every night in his night shirt to be closer to him (my way) and sleep on his side of our bed. He was a special being, a sincere and devoted son of the most high. He was true to his calling and that gave me some peace that I'll see him in Gloryland.