Sweet Southern Boy

Keith and I met in Aug 2010, we were inseparable from that moment on. It was in Sept during his routine check at the oncologist that he found out his Leukemia was no longer in remission. I felt like the bottom dropped out from under us. We had finally found each other and now Keith would be battling Leukemia for the 2nd time in 3 years.

His worst fear was that the mother of his children left him during his first round of ALL, he was scared I was going to do the same. I promised him I was there for the long haul. This time the ALL only stayed in remission for one month. We found out it was back again after months of treatment. We got the news from his oncologist the day my engagement ring arrived. Keith placed it on my finger, while I cried because it like life just wouldn't give us a chance to grow old together.

We spent August 2011 seeing all the National Parks Keith had wanted to see. We entered in 3 research trials and went from New York to California to Texas.

It was February when the final research drug was killing off too many leukemic cells. Keith had a heart attack, then another and then a stroke. He was put on life support so I could say my goodbyes. I was holding his hand and whispering in his ear that I loved him and I was with him.

Keith left me at 11:25 pm on February 29th, 2012. I kissed him and told him I loved him.

I was numb for days...my Mom guided me onto the plane from Texas back home to Seattle. I would only cry if I were completely alone. I just didn't think anyone knew the intense pain that tore me from the inside out.

I'm typing this through tears as I just downloaded some pics from July that I took when I went to Atlanta to visit Keith's family. One look at his face and his dimpled grin and I'm in love with him all over again. He was the first man to propose to me. I kept my promise and stayed with him until the end.

I will miss him each day for the rest of my days. He was a kind, gentle, loving Southern boy. I hope he will always know that he is in my heart and I loved him through the good and bad times.
renaissancered renaissancered
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Dec 5, 2012